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This Bar
You're killing me
You really are
I don't think I'll make it
Out of this bar
Maybe someone here
Can save me still
But I've started to doubt
And I think I always will
He pours me a drink
I push it back and sigh
My heart is on the swizzle stick
Come on baby, drink me dry
Now my head is soaked
in red and white wine
I know you're gonna break me
So come on baby, take your time
My chin is up
my feet are kinda on the ground
I'm gonna try to love you
Until the very last round
Then I'm outta here
Like a sunset
That's just so beautiful
it kinda breaks your heart
Then I'm outta here
Cause you're killing me
And I'll never make it
Out of this bar
The Ending Game
10 meteors blazed across the sky
Along 30 then 40 highways
The leaves are gonna blow your mind
They are gonna beg you to stay
Peace lives in the mountains
The hills that will cradle you like home
Home, to yourself again
A home away from me for now...
Promises are only
Dreams to endeavor
So I'll lay here and remember
Never say forever
I walked into your room
To feel the emptiness there
I found solace in my longing
In criss-cross patterns lingering in the carpet
Splinters clung to my heel
Stabbing for something new to feel
You pirouette swirling insane
And now this is the ending game...
Promises are only
Dreams to endeavor
So I'll lay here and remember
Never say forever
Didn't ever want to leave
Couldn't ever have seen
Inevitability
Bringing us to scream
I knew I would write this
Something resembling a farewell kiss
Something like a goodbye
To this part of the ride of our lives
I knew I would learn again
Lesson echoing in my brain
This is the way of the cosmic river
When you try to move pieces in play...
Promises are only
Dreams to endeavor
So I'll lay here and remember
Never say forever
Never say forever
Never say forever
Icarus
I like this cigarette
I think I'll rest it on my lips
I dig the road I'm on
Think I'll ride into the sunset
Your lips look kissable
But you've been dead since 2-26-94
Can't understand the wind
Till you've blown in that Direction
Icarus & Minerva
Were in 25 Cancer
Square the east point
Square the east point
I favor those with quick minds
So I look to the left
And see Mr. Nonchalant
being everything I ever wanted
There's just one problem
There's just one problem
He went and softened the yellow beeswax with his thumb
He went and softened the yellow beeswax
With his thumb
Used to try to save souls with my kindness
Now I know I was out of my mind to try
I can't catch fishes for everyone
Go sing your own songs
And right your own wrongs
I like this cigarette
I think I'll rest it on my lips
I dig the road I'm on
Think I'll ride into the sunset
It Never Isn't
There's trouble in your eyes tonight
Not like a mischievous child
But of a heart breaking midnight
The trouble with me
It never isn't
Always hurts me to see
You seethe
Like a tide that just learned
It's just a small part of
The sea
There's danger in your hands tonight
Not like you'll hit me or shake me
But still, you'll break me just right
The danger with you
It never isn't
You think you aren't free
With me
Like a star in the sky
That feels grounded by
Gravity
I want you to be free
And I want you to stay with me
But mostly I want you happy
So come home,
Sweet heart breaking midnight
There's a lover in your arms tonight
She's not who I'd think
Not me on the brink of delight
The love between us
It never isn't
Incredible and deep
'till sleep...
Like the ocean, the Universe,
A good book,
Or Gods that weep
I want you to be free
I wanted you to stay with me
But mostly I see you happily
Bringing home
my heart breaking midnight
Come home
Sweet heart breaking midnight
It never isn't
Sweet heart breaking midnight
Sand or Stone
What does your house stand on
Is it sand or is it stone
What are you made of
Is it blood or is it bone
Is it both and do you
Stand up when the wind blows
Is it sand or stone
Is it 60 or is it 59
Are you the devil
Or the God of your own wine
Do you have angels in your pocket
Or do you have gold
Is it sand or is it stone
Is it leaving or is it walking away
Are you confident
Or is that just your brave face
If there's a wall in your way do you
Kneel down to pray
Is it sand or is it stone
Make me believe or don't
Believe for yourself or count
Your blessings as happenstance
Your messes as not your own
Brick by brick I lay
Grain by grain I wash away
Bleeding, you beg to stay
But I was built alone
What does your house stand on
Is it sand or is it stone
What are you made of
Is it blood or is it bone
Is it both and do you
Stand up when the wind blows
Is it sand or stone?
Deep Down Doves
No lease, just month to month
And now month 9 is here
Unbridled up the hill on horseback
At least the weather’s been clear
My compass cracked a while back
About a quarter after north
Waiting for the ebb tide
To drag our future forth
My mood has been shifted
By a peg legged magician
I’m wandering with white rabbits
Inside their hats so deep that I see
Where they hide the doves away
Ships come in and ships go out
Each one with its cargo
Who can blame the wind
Obeying fate’s embargo?
My mood has been shifted
By a peg legged magician
I’m wandering with white rabbits
Inside their hats so deep that I see
Where they hide the doves away
No lease, just month to month
And now month 9 is here
Unbridled up the hill on horseback
At least the weather’s been cleared....
Away away away
Not Your Storm
Leave if you have to
Hate me every step of the way
Go with your head up
Your voice raised your fists clenched
I'll stay
All these years are moments
I'll covet and care for always
Kissing will never be
As tender or perfect
...Or pained
I know you want me to hate you back
I know you want me to attack but
My doors will remain
I am not yours
I know you want me to hate you
I know you want me to hurt you
My doors are open
I am not your storm
If there's anything left
That I can do
To bridge this void, consider it done
Even if it's hearing you
Curse my name
I don't hold anything against you
I'll wait till you come home to roost
'till then whether you like it or not
I'll see you in my dreams
I know you want me to hate you back
I know you want me to attack but
My doors will remain
I am not yours
I know you want me to hate you
I know you want me to hurt you
My doors are open
I am not your storm
I never wanted to hate you
I never wanted to hurt you back
Said it and I meant it
I am not yours
I never wanted to hate you
I never wanted to hurt you back
Said it and I meant it
I am not your storm
Harbinger
I'm no Jesus
I'm not no Judas neither
I can't save you but I won't betray
You either
Commit new wonders to the world
Your life is sand in the wind away
Forget the papers
Here's your chance to stow away
I'd like to harbor you
for an instant
Warrior I will follow you
All the fallen will follow, too
Cut your sinless path all the way home
If there's snake in the grass
You'll crush its head for sure
It there's an angel here
Harbinger it's you
I'd like to harbor you
for an instant
Harbinger deliver us the light
Bring all you have to set the spark
Reach for the sun
But remember the dark
Dance to the rain before you drown
Accept the sun lest it burn you down
Embrace what ails you and overcome
Boldly go and find the truth
Plant it deep into this charade
It's written, don't fear
Just mind the terrain
I'd like to harbor you
for an instant
I'd like to harbor you
for an instant
Sticky Honey
It’s a secret this love
You don’t even know
That you have it in your pocket
Leaking out through a hole
To spread down your leg
And tickle your feet
But it’s there
Sticky honey
So sweet
It’s not too far
It’s not too close
It’s not for finding
Nor to lose
It’s inside
The wild
Of me
If death do us part
Could be spoken by my heart
It’d be you that would hear
In a whisper my dear
That would spread down your leg
And tickle your feet
And warm your
Sticky honey
So sweet
It’s not too far
It’s not too close
It’s not for finding
Nor to lose
It’s inside
The wild
Of me
There’s a moment in my head
That’ll never be fed
It’ll starve till it dies
Then get eaten by the flies
That’ll spread down my leg
That’ll tickle my feet
In my coffin
Sticky honey
So sweet
It’s not too far
It’s not too close
It’s not for finding
Nor to lose
It’s inside
The wild
Of me
Vegas Nasty
I hope you got laid
I hope you got laid
After the fuss that you made
And the bullshit you said
I hope you got laid
I hope you got caught
I hope you got caught
By the wife you forgot
After the slot that you bought
I hope you got caught
Don’t sleep on my kindness
I coulda been your best pal
Don’t trip on some blindness
Thinking its a mating call
I hope you felt free
I hope you felt free
That’s the best way to be
When contracting an STD
When the lady says no
When the lady says no
Then it’s time to go
And try to grow
When she says no
Don’t sleep on my kindness
I coulda been your best pal
Don’t trip on some blindness
Thinking its a mating call
Don’t sleep on my kindness
I coulda been your best pal
Don’t trip on some blindness
Get back to masturbating
And I DO
you wanna do this?
let's do this.
Let's smash it to bits
It's not like I held your hand
through all your darkest shit
You wanna do this?
let's do this.
Stomp on your heart with my shoe
I'm wearing combat boots
you know I'll follow through
and I do
you may not but I do
You gonna lose it?
Then do it.
Think of all your bad luck
Scream your head off in the mirror
Say you don't give a fuck
I'm at home
Not feeling welcome
Your illusions creeping
sticking me with biting fists
And I feel so alone
and I do
you may not but I do
You wanna bleed me?
Then do it.
Go on and give it your best
I'm only flesh and bone
Swing your hammer
at my chest
You wanna keep this up?
No problem, man I'm fine
Better than you faking it
wasting all our time
And you do
I won't but
You do
Didn't I say I'd love you
No matter what?
I swore I'd pull through you
All those holes that you cut
I gave you my word
So I stand by it, and you
I looked at you and
said that shit, so yeah...
I do
And I Do
Dot Dot Dot ...
I want to revisit and jump
off the edge
of past moments
that linger with the endless feeling of
dot dot dot.
Is this regret?
Is it hindsight?
A tear in the tapestry when things don't align right?
What is right,
Is it written?
Are you allowed to hold the pen
once you've been forgiven?
dot dot dot
back to those moments I wanna redo
Only precious few
But they stack up so high
An optical illusion of sighs
that topples to my bed
When the blue light of dawn
meets my waking breath
dot dot dot
and I lie
so still
I want them to fall
To know their shape
feel their weight
I sleep a little longer
among all of them
And I dream of what if
i dream of what next
dot dot dot
I want to revisit and jump
off the edge of past moments
that linger with the endless feeling of
dot dot dot.
